Doubts

by Anonymous

Why do I rarely feel God's presence when I pray? Am I doing it wrong? Am I thinking in a way that God doesn't respond to?... Or am I praying to a God that doesn't exist?

Sometimes I wonder if Christians delude themselves with thought that God is doing all these great things for them but it's just them? Am I one of these people?

When can I think clearly about God? Or will my mind always be a small cup of dirty water? Sometimes I wonder if I will waste my time on a God that I don't believe in...

But, still, I'll keep praying to that God till I know, love, and preach him. I'll pray every night that Almighty will carry my doubts onto the cross....

But can I say that I've never felt God's awesome presence? Surely I would've known it was Him! How can I not be sure? Does this make me a weak Christian? How do I know every holy sentence I ever spouted out was just a bunch of meaningless words? Will he ever make his presence known?

Still, I'll pray for forgiveness of my doubts, for I trust God's children who are also my friends. I'll pray for a soft heart and an open mind. Still I'll chase after these holy men; Jesus Christ, God and the holy spirit.

There is something so appealing about all 3 guys that I can't ignore. But what if it's all a mass illusion? An illusion that tricked the entire world. This is when I say to myself, Can I afford to think like this? I guess I'll keep on living like a lukewarm.

Stilll, I'll pray for my saving. And His eternal gift to us.

It all comes down to this... Why have faith if you're praying to a god that you don't believe's alive?

Do we because our friends tell us it's right? Our own instinct? Out of fear?

The truth is, we all have a little piece of God in our hearts..He's calling to you everyday. The real question to be asked is...Will you answer Him?...